WHY???

Why do I do things to myself that I know is going to send me into a deep dark funk? I sat here and started looking at Ocracoke pictures knowing fully well what it would do to me. Why do I do that?? Why purposely make myself feel worse? I have to stay away from that if I want to ever feel better!

On Monday Billy started having a nose bleed really bad. He went to the hospital and then called me at work said Gail was supposed to come over to his house and he couldn't get hold of her. He was trying to warn her because he said there was blood eveywhere even down the steps and on the front door. It makes me laugh now to think about how Gail would have reacted. I am sure she would have thought he had been murdered and would have called the police. His BP was extremely high and he had not been taking his medications, they were not sure what caused the bleed. They packed it and kept him until his BP started going down some. Then that night he had to go back because it started again. He was there that time until 2:00 AM. On Tuesday it bled some but quit and then yesterday he had to go back for them to check it. His BP was down thank goodness. They took the packing out of his nose and cauterized it. He felt much better after that because he could not breathe too well with the packing they had put in.